I saw my shadow on my long run this morning. It intrigued
me for some odd reason so I snapped a picture of it. I also saw a red fox. It
literally leaped out of a bush on the road in front of me, ran toward me and
stopped. I stopped too and we had eye to eye contact for a good 3-5 seconds
until he darted back into the bushes.
The fox really scared me. It was just starting to get
light out and it seemed like the perfect excuse to turn around. In my mind it
was surely a sign that today was not the day to attempt my goal distance of
13.1 miles. There were other reasons not to attempt it too. It's hard to run
when you feel out of sync.
I didn't turn around. I kept running and I finished. Training my brain
to go the distance is proving harder than training my body to go the distance.
True for running. True for life.
It's weird. I don't feel as good as I had expected to after
meeting such a big goal. I'm not sure why. I expected hitting 13.1 to feel
incredible. Maybe I'm just not in a place to celebrate today? Or maybe I got a
glimpse of how long the rest of the journey really will be?
I feel like moving past 13.1 is crossing an imaginary
line. I'm crossing the line into the unfamiliar. I'm crossing into the second
half of the marathon and that scares me. The first 13.1 miles was hard. It was
hard on my body & some of the lessons were hard on my heart. The next 13. 1
miles will probably be more so. It's so unknown. I've never pushed myself this
hard or spent this much time alone with myself. Or my shadow.
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