Monday, September 20, 2010

Picking up where I left off

The best laid intentions…. Isn’t there some sort of saying about that? I started this blog last spring with the intention of offering a little piece of my life but mostly to help me make some sense out of my life. Writing seems to do that for me.
So in April I started the blog and immediately following my mom was diagnosed with liver cancer. My life from that point on is a bit of a blur. My mom died on June 22nd 2010 and someday when I feel so inclined I will share the story. For now suffice it to say that it was one of the most difficult times of my life. Some days it still is. So bear with me on this blog journey as I see where it goes. Share your thoughts and stories with me and maybe together life will start to make more sense. 

The sun is shining so brightly today. It makes such a difference in my mood. I took my friend that I help every week out to do his shopping. He is such a great guy. Typically when we check out, I purchase my items or the sub we split and then I help him purchase his groceries. It’s almost always the same routine with the checkout girl. I pay cash for mine. The cashier is chit chatty and pleasant. I then help John pay with his benefit card (aka food stamps) and the whole experience changes. The cashier changes her tone. This transaction rarely includes the smile and thank you I received when my transaction was done. Well today was different! The woman that rang us out was equally pleasant to both of us. It may sound crazy but those little things don’t go unnoticed and make such a difference in life! It’s going to be a good day.

I’m trying out this new philosophy. I am a huge worrier and as soon as I start I tell myself, “it will all work out”. So far so good. Ignorance is bliss anyway so I figure I can’t lose, right?