Friday, February 28, 2014

Moments

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"When the waves close over me, I dive down and fish for pearls." Masha Koleko.

I read this quote somewhere recently and it stuck with me. At the time I wasn't sure why.

Then last week my purse was stolen, with all of my cards inside as well as over $100 in cash, my license, gift cards (mine and my daughters) and my new iPhone 5. It's safe to say it was a very difficult day for me. I lost 2,000 pictures that were on it of my family. Memories from August to the present day gone forever because I hadn't plugged my phone into my computer since then. I also lost many writings for future blogs in my notes section and other personal things.

The whole incident brought up a very old feeling for me, a feeling that I had spent a lifetime trying to overcome and had only recently achieved. Fear. 

In the midst of this I have had to use my old cell phone, too cheap to pay full retail price at Verizon for a new one. The old one doesn't work consistently and is a real PITA for lack of a more appropriate word. 

Today is my day off and I decided to go for a drive. It's cold but sunny and I plugged in my phone to play some tunes. The song below came on while I was thinking again about the quote. It's called, Moments, by Emerson Drive. I had totally forgotten about it. For some reason when I got my new phone last May the song never transferred to it. It's likely I wouldn't have heard it again today if I wasn't on my old crappy iPhone 4.

While I listened, it dawned on me that I had just found a "pearl".

Take 5 minutes and listen to the song or this will make little sense to you....

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JzriEXPJ1-k 

I was reminded today that my own life is a series of moments. I've been the one on the "edge". I've been the "homeless" man. I've been the one making bad choices. I've felt like I was coming to the end of a long, long walk.

I've had my moments. 
Days in the sun. 
Moments. 
I was second to none. 
Moments. 
When I knew I did what I thought I couldn't do. 

Looking at me now you might not know it. But I've had my moments.

While I have never stolen anything or been addicted to drugs, this song reminds me that this is just one single moment in the person's life that stole from me. I also have moments I am not proud of. A single moment separates she and I. I hope that somehow, someday, this moment in time that also connects us will become as meaningful to her as it has to me.