Thursday, April 18, 2013

The Dance



Pablo Picassa , La Danse

Mother in law called. Check. Ran 6 miles. Check. Work. Check. Elizabeth spur of the moment dental appointment. Check. Piano lessons. Check. The rest of today? Dinner, homework, more work, lunches, showers, bedtime routines. Somewhere in there I’m supposed to meet with a trainer at the gym. Hmm. That will be tricky. And wouldn’t it be nice to have some time to relax and get in a better frame of mind for my tests tomorrow?
 
Days like today feel like I’m moving way too fast. Everyone has these kinds of days I suppose. But I’m so tired that I don’t feel like I will really enjoy any of it. Do I cut something out? Or do I merely change my outlook?


I’m most looking forward to piano today. Elizabeth has such a talent and I love listening to her play. She taught herself (by writing on the keys of our piano!) before we moved. She has a natural gift. She took lessons for only 4 or 5 months before we moved and she had to stop, but she was playing pieces like Fanfare, Swans on the Lake, Ode to Joy, and Allegro in C. I am so proud of her. I’ve been determined since we arrived here to get her back in lessons, and start Liv too. And I finally did it! Today is their first lesson. I’m so grateful I have the business so I can do things like this for them.


So running today was awesome. I had the best splits I’ve ever had. 6 miles with splits of 9.14, 9.40, 9.00, 9.21, 10.2, 8.40, 7.50. It felt so good to be running out in the country. I actually found myself dreaming of living out there. It was so peaceful. Between that and all the country songs I’ve been drawn to lately I can’t help but wonder if there’s a country girl somewhere inside me waiting to get out :) I listened to a new song on my run today, The Dance. It may be an old song but it was new to me! My mind wandered listening to some of the lyrics. “Glad I didn’t know, the way it all would end. The way it had to go. Our lives, are better left to chance. I coulda missed the pain. But I’d of had to miss the dance.”


The song really made me think. Would I skip the dance if I knew the pain? People die. People say goodbye. People break your heart. I decided that for me life is all about the dance. Life is short and the dance makes it worth living even when you know eventually the song will end. And then? Well then I guess I have to have faith and wait for the next song to start. It was a good run today.