I have been struggling for weeks
trying to come up with a more appropriate name for this blog. I wanted the name
to reflect so many things. I wanted it to capture candle making and my
business, For the Love of Lizzy Candles. I wanted it to capture my struggles
with turning 40 and my new love of running. It needed to capture my renewed
love of writing. I thought of lots of catchy names but none of them felt right.
So true to how my brain and
creativity seem to work these days, it just came to me on yesterday’s run. It
seemed so simple. And as I ran I had the odd sense that it had been there all
along. It’s almost as if the act of running somehow gets my mind flowing. The
physical movement somehow unlocks my imagination and my creativity. It was
really pretty simple. For the love of me. I’m 40 years old and all the things
I’m finally doing and discovering are finally for the love of me. I’m learning
to love myself at 40. I’m reflecting on my life, my choices and planning my
future. My business reflects light in the candles I produce, but also in the freedom
it allows me. I can see the light in my children everyday thanks to my
business. I can see the light in the gratitude from the folks at the community
kitchen.
It’s interesting that the name of my
blog came from the name of my business. I started my business for family
balance when I had my daughter, Elizabeth. It was perfect. I could be
home more while earning an income and spending time with her. I remember I
struggled with a name for the business 11 years ago also. I remember the name
came to me out of no where. It was simple and as soon as I thought it, I knew
it was right much in the same way this feels right. It feels like it’s finally
my time.
I’m so grateful for yesterday’s
revelation. I am grateful that it came to me and that I have an outlet for my
thoughts and feelings doing so many things I love. It’s amazing how this blog
has allowed me to pull all the aspects of myself together in a way that is
finally starting to make sense. Sometimes I feel like one big contradiction.
Nothing I love seemed to fit together. But through running and writing, getting
jobs and quitting jobs, sharing my successes and failures, opening myself up to
others, and through accepting things as they are, I have discovered everything
fits. For the love of… me. Writing, running and reflecting light. My journey to
discover and integrate who I am, what I do and what I love.
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